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Sunday, October 30, 2011

Forgotten Treasures

Hey, anybody out there? I lost myself for awhile. I seriously forgot who I was, and what I stood for, and traded my sanity for a little bit more money. I have a job I hate. I come home in tears most every night, or morning. Why?

I keep fooling myself into thinking that it will get better. I am tired, and have been giving it my best effort, honest. I believe that my life, with all its blessings and value should be put to good use. I believe that I have a purpose, but that working at this job is not fulfilling it. I am sinking. I have no time to do those things that I value. I have no time to read, write, paint, blog, take photos, be creative, cook. I don't even have time to shop, so what am I doing?

It is time to stop this insanity! It is a real problem! I need sleeping pills to sleep, and anti anxiety pills to function during the day. I work overnights, and days. I have an " on call" phone in my right pocket waiting for a call to jump back in. It is not a good fit, for me. I know that. People with anxiety need structure, and this is as unstructured as it gets.

So if anyone reads this, and can, please say a little prayer for me. I will start looking for something else, soon. I will be much more picky. There must be a lesson in this, somewhere.

Anyway, I love the new apartment. The view is awesome, and the family is alive and well.

Okay, enough!



Thursday, October 27, 2011

October beauty

The last of the roses
Snow in the air

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