Turning

What if this is an alternate universe and I am unborn?

What if this is a flashback and I am old and lying on my death bed?

What if my children were happy?

What if I wasn't really sorry? 

What if all good things didn't have to come to an end?

If I could turn back time, I would. If I could make you happy I would.

If I could die for you and change it, saving you, like Christ did, I would.

No doubt!

But I can not.

I can not feel your pain for you, though I would, if I were able.

I can not, and perhaps that is for the best.

My soul is full of its own regret

And beauty

And love

What if I were strong enough in all the broken places?

What if, just what if?